Tuesday, March 22, 2005 Suscribe to this blog


Towards Zero sanny @ 3:15 PM


Whatever's in the past is in the past. I have always known that I'm a very stubborn and uncompromising person with regard to certain things. It's always all or nothing for me, now even more than before. Sort of extreme, I know. Well James and Niki came back from Indo last Sunday and yesterday James was blabbering about how Mami met 'Guan Gong' (i.e. a medium who's possessed by the spirit of Guan Gong) in Medan and heard what Guan Gong has to say about the five of us.

He 'spoke' that I'm intelligent, soft-hearted but often ignorant. He also said that when I grow older, I'll marry late because I'm too passive. If I'm going to marry late, it's definitely not because I'm passive (stone drops on head). Frankly speaking, I don't mind marrying late. The most important thing is who you end up with and how that marriage turns out. For me, I will only marry the one I truly love or I would rather not marry at all. Get that? I will never ever compromise for a result which is not true to who I am (cue brainwashing channel 8 love serials). In the past, I used to rue, oh shucks, I'm going to be an old maid because of this quirk of mine, because of the fact that I'm so focused on who I like, I don't pay attention to anybody else, no matter how good they are. So if God deemed that I should not marry the one I like, I guess, for this lifetime, I'll remain single, or be a nun or something. (FYI, Mami nearly did - so maybe I'm similar to her in that sense).

For now, I know that I will always always have the unconditional love of my dad and no matter what happens, I already have the love of one of two men whose love I need/yearn most (child(ren) not included - if I ever have ok). I'm an incomplete person (huuhuu Jerry Maguire) now still but as always, it's a half full glass and not a half empty one. Oh and to the medium, I believe you know the past but the future is still open.